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My dearest Sophia,

There are no words to describe my pain because it is not really here yet. My heart is like a tiny hut, the vast ocean knocking on the door, I am waiting to be swept away with grief.

I loved you like my own child. You were the light of my life, and you died of a broken heart. There is an unspeakable emptiness, a physical one, because you are not on my shoulder.

When my grandfather died, when Petey died, I felt their presence almost immediately in my own soul. It was as though through their transcendence into immortality, their physical presence became an immediate spiritual one—and I still feel it now.

Sophie, this is not so with you. I do not want to know that you have died. I do not want to believe I shall never see your pure eyes, experience your wings spread across my chest, feel the feathers of your sweet head under my chin. Sophie, I adored you, and I always will. I love you with all of my heart and I am so very, very sorry.

I do not know why God is ripping apart from me all whom I hold dear. My world has fallen apart and I do not know why.

But I loved you and am so sorry. I hope you can forgive me. I’m not sure I will ever be able to forgive myself.

Date: Dec. 15th, 2008 01:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh honey, you are going through so much right now! My heart is breaking for you. All I can really do is send e-hugs, but I'm sending a bajillion of them.

Date: Dec. 15th, 2008 02:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you. I need them. :'(

Date: Dec. 15th, 2008 02:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh god Jen. Oh god. :((( I am so incredibly sorry because I know what she meant to you.

Date: Dec. 15th, 2008 04:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so sorry. :( I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Date: Dec. 16th, 2008 02:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
My condolences. :( Very sorry for your loss.

Date: Dec. 17th, 2008 04:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh goodness, Jen. I am so very sorry.


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