Football? A body could get hurt!

Last night I had a dream, and I'm trying not to read too much into it. Nevertheless, I had been accepted to University of Florida's and Miami's football teams, and I was trying to figure out which one I wanted to play for. I chose Miami. They had a great scholarship. Chris - you were there, too. We were going to play football on the same team.

At any rate, I was driving to practice, accidentally passed the field, did a U-Turn (was almost pulled over by a cop), got to the field and thought, "What the heck am I doing? I could get hurt!"

Do you think football is symbolic, in my unconscious mind, of law? ;-)

It's a good thing I'm not a big believer in my dreams!

On the Steps of the Palace

I just posted this comment to Val, who was discussing how she makes peace with herself when dreams are mirroring her conflicts.

My problem is:

"My problem is that every-other day, it seems, I change my mind about what I want to be when I grow up. First was psychology (1996-2001),
*then it changed to law (2001-2002 - took the LSAT)
*then neuroscience (2002-2003 - did eight months of research and worked on senior thesis)
*then psychology (2003)
*then mental health counseling (2003 - enrolled in classes, then dropped)
*then doctor (two weeks - James reminded me science wasn't my strong suit)
*then psychology (2004 - began studying for the GRE, contacted professors, read hundreds of pages of psychological studies),
*and now it's law again (2004 - just paid $120 to enroll in the LSDAS, have sent resumes, have asked ppl to write letters of rec, and am now reading a book on torts). I GOTTA GO TO COLLEGE! lol.

I know I won't make a great psychologist - I'd get burned out. I see that in my clients. I am courteous, but they still drive me crazy sometimes! I was too idealistic thinking I could change people. Some can change - those that want to, but for the majority of the ppl I wanted as clients, the problems are too comprehensive - they can't read, they can't keep jobs, they were abused, they have so many issues... I can't just wave a wand and make it better. Some do change - I did. But... I think I'd get burned out, personally.

So... In my heart I know law is for the best. On the other hand, however, I fear that if I allow myself to "dream" of other occupations, I will get all hyped up and change yet again. I have to stop. I must choose. I think I'd enjoy law. It's very flexible. But I'm scared because I can't think of other things - pursue other venues - just in case I get all obsessed yet AGAIN.

But then, what if I hate law? ;-)

I'm such a P about this!"

Anyway - I just thought of a song, it's an INFP song, that I love, and am going to post the lyrics.

Cinderella is stuck because she tripped on her way out...

"On the Steps of the Palace"

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So... any way to turn this around to make to, um, leave the shoe on their steps, so to speak (and avoid making a decision)?