My problem is that every-other day, it seems, I change my mind about what I want to be when I grow up. First was psychology (1996-2001), *then it changed to law (2001-2002 - took the LSAT) *then neuroscience (2002-2003 - did eight months of research and worked on senior thesis) *then psychology (2003) *then mental health counseling (2003 - enrolled in classes, then dropped) *then doctor (two weeks - James reminded me science wasn't my strong suit) *then psychology (2004 - began studying for the GRE, contacted professors, read hundreds of pages of psychological studies), *and now it's law again (2004 - just paid $120 to enroll in the LSDAS, have sent resumes, have asked ppl to write letters of rec, and am now reading a book on torts). I GOTTA GO TO COLLEGE! lol.
I know I won't make a great psychologist - I'd get burned out. I see that in my clients. I am courteous, but they still drive me crazy sometimes! I was too idealistic thinking I could change people. Some can change - those that want to, but for the majority of the ppl I wanted as clients, the problems are too comprehensive - they can't read, they can't keep jobs, they were abused, they have so many issues... I can't just wave a wand and make it better. Some do change - I did. But... I think I'd get burned out, personally.
So... In my heart I know law is for the best. On the other hand, however, I fear that if I allow myself to "dream" of other occupations, I will get all hyped up and change yet again. I have to stop. I must choose. I think I'd enjoy law. It's very flexible. But I'm scared because I can't think of other things - pursue other venues - just in case I get all obsessed yet AGAIN.
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momijizukamori
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Date: Mar. 9th, 2004 10:06 am (UTC)*then it changed to law (2001-2002 - took the LSAT)
*then neuroscience (2002-2003 - did eight months of research and worked on senior thesis)
*then psychology (2003)
*then mental health counseling (2003 - enrolled in classes, then dropped)
*then doctor (two weeks - James reminded me science wasn't my strong suit)
*then psychology (2004 - began studying for the GRE, contacted professors, read hundreds of pages of psychological studies),
*and now it's law again (2004 - just paid $120 to enroll in the LSDAS, have sent resumes, have asked ppl to write letters of rec, and am now reading a book on torts). I GOTTA GO TO COLLEGE! lol.
I know I won't make a great psychologist - I'd get burned out. I see that in my clients. I am courteous, but they still drive me crazy sometimes! I was too idealistic thinking I could change people. Some can change - those that want to, but for the majority of the ppl I wanted as clients, the problems are too comprehensive - they can't read, they can't keep jobs, they were abused, they have so many issues... I can't just wave a wand and make it better. Some do change - I did. But... I think I'd get burned out, personally.
So... In my heart I know law is for the best. On the other hand, however, I fear that if I allow myself to "dream" of other occupations, I will get all hyped up and change yet again. I have to stop. I must choose. I think I'd enjoy law. It's very flexible. But I'm scared because I can't think of other things - pursue other venues - just in case I get all obsessed yet AGAIN.
But then, what if I hate law? ;-)
I'm such a P about this!