*Yarg*

[smile_n_cuddle]

Thoughts colliding in my mind
one after another they crash
never ending, never stopping
there is no respite to this war.

Who can stop them? Where is peace?
Alas my source of strength is gone.
There is no arm of comfort this time
No encouraging words that all is fine.

I cannot sleep, my heart is broken
I cannot rest, the pain is great
Another long night of hopelessness
Until the sun awakens faith tomorrow morn.

*Jen notes her nickname isn't "Drama" for nothin'*

Comments

[fl0werchylde.livejournal.com]

Missing J again? :(

[niff.livejournal.com]

*sigh*

Yes. I know. I'm such a sap. It's just that when I'm anxious (like now) I always feel warm inside when he's there. When he's not... It's like I have no other defense than to give way to the anxiety and depression. :-(

[avivalasvegas.livejournal.com]

I have the same feelings (though maybe not to the same extent)... *hugs*

[niff.livejournal.com]

It's nice to know I'm not alone :-) A lot of it is that before I met James I was *really* depressed and struggled with anxiety. He's brought so much happiness to my life, so much reassurance, that horrible as this sounds, I really need him around or I fall back into the depression. It's very frustrating and really annoys me when I realize I don't have the energy to deal with things myself without him.

How long have you been with your sweetheart? It's truly a blessing to be with someone you love so much!

[avivalasvegas.livejournal.com]

:) we've been together 4-1/2 years, living together for just over two, but not getting married until next year.

we were long distance for about 18 months, just after he graduated college, which had an effect on me similar to what you describe, though thankfully not enough to require meds. Sunday nights after he left me or I left him were awful, but it got better over time--sort of like a dull ache. But after we decided that I was going to move to be with him after I graduated (he was two years ahead of me), I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, and that made things way more bearable, and I became a lot happier. I think you will, too, even though your current situation is trying.

[niff.livejournal.com]

LOL. Oh, the meds aren't from this, but from anxiety in general. My mind likes to scan for any little thing it can find to send me into a panic attack! It's always like this, just not as bad when he's around. Okay, non-existent almost when he's around... But the meds still help manage it.

4 1/2 years is awesome!! Are you excited about the wedding?

It's strange to be married after living together for so long, at least to me. The biggest differences are 1) the fact that it's no longer hush-hush we're living together because we're "sinning", and 2) now I receive lots of unsolicited advice from Christian ladies (friends of my mother's) who tell me to submit to my husband and have lots of babies. They rather disapprove of my being in law school... So it feels a bit odd, to me, and makes me mad that those who rejected us because we were "living together" now have no problem with us because we actually have a little piece of paper.

But that's my rant :-) Perhaps you are lucky enough not to know too many fundamentalists ;-)

[xeriah.livejournal.com]

You shall be known as the "Broadway Lawyer".

[niff.livejournal.com]

Haha! That's me :-)

*sings*

Climb every mountain!!!