smile_n_cuddle | Nervous Breakdown :-)

Weeelllll I had my nervous breakdown this afternoon. Spent an hour or two lying on the bed wracking with sobs, crying my eyes out, convinced I should just walk in on Monday and announce to the Dean I'm leaving, trying to convince James to let me just quit and do something else...

He won't let me. He says this is normal. I think it's sadistic.

My problem is this: I am supposed to write an office memo. It sounds easy enough. When I first heard about it, I thought it was just a fax :-)

No biggie, right?

Well, my professor sucks. This is a technical writing class. She thinks she's God and should teach it in the socratic method. So whenever we ask, "How do we do this?" She responds, "How do you think you should do it?" We reply, "We don't know." She says, "Well go figure it out."

So while the other two classes are perfectly understanding how to synchronize cases and law and track law in their writing and for crying out loud they have a fucking outline from class, we are left to grapple with what the hell an office memo is.

Yeah, nice.

The only ones in our class doing ok on this were previously paralegals. I hate them.

Anyway, my office memo is due on Tuesday. It's to be 15 pages long. I've had 12 pages done since Monday... And I can't continue. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to address the issues, what to repeat, what not to repeat...So I called my friend who's in The Good Teacher's class, and she says, "Oh no, that's not right ... that's not right ... no, you shouldn't have done that either."

Hence my sobs. 12 pages wasted. I have another paper due Wedneaday, 90 pages to read for contracts (because the prof got behind) and exams start the following week. Yeah, ouch.

So... I've decided to start from scratch. I've reviewed all of my notes. I've reread the highlighted portions of my office memo book. I'm gonna rewrite it. And it's gonna be fucking the best paper she's ever seen.

Maybe.